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B word.

so lately i've been a real B word. k whatever don't jump to conclusions! i'm talking about the B word... BRIDEZILLA. sorry everyone. sorry fiance. sorry family. mostly sorry girl on the phone that didn't know what the hell i was talking about and i called you an idiot. sorry.

well i'm wondering if i can blame it on the birth control. yeah that's probably what it is. but only i can say that. cause if you say that i will rip your freakin head off.

then i kinda wanna blame it on the lack of sleep. but then that would mean i have to take responsibility for not going to bed on time. and no way do i take responsibility for anything negative now a days. i only take responsibility for cute ideas that i actually didn't necessarily come up with. but then maybe they were my ideas? i can't keep all those wedding blogs straight! who's to say i didn't come up with paper flowers on my own!

i could blame it on the weather, yeah? like sunny days and snow cones make every girl way mean.... right?? DAMMIT!

our first place.

trying to find decent married housing in provo is hard. sooo many sketch places. like how do people live in some of those places? i dunno. last week we found the greatest place to live. well i thought it was the greatest. danny could barely fit in that cupboard of an apartment. but i LOVED it. and so after much eye batting and please oh please's danny agreed to live the next year of his life bent in half. cool. so we called them to tell them we wanted it and.... it was already SOLD. wahhhhh. i can't remember if i cried. but i probably did. so the search continued. everyone said we would find something even better. danny was secretly happy but pretended that he was so sad :((((. so then this week we have looked at like 100 places. okay maybe like 10. okay maybe like 5. but still. let's just say that pictures people post online are not the same as in real life. we were let down A LOT. but this has a happy ending of course or else i wouldn't be blogging right now i would be being pissed. so anyway we took our lunch break one day to look at yet another place, we had no expectations, we drove by, and figured there was no way it could be that cool vintage style house and that we had to have the wrong address. we walked up, still not excited. but the second the landlord opened the door i couldn't stop pinching danny. like the good kind of pinch. like hey i want this place. i love it! we loved it. we practically were throwing money at the guy so that we would let us live there. but that wasn't good enough. he did a background check and credit check. we didn't know that's not normal? anyway, i guess he wanted to make sure we're not criminals. but we were approved!! and we have the keys! yay! we love our little place and can't wait to start our lives together there.

for you.

i needed this. maybe you do too?

eloise.

eloise,

yesterday you were born. so i guess you could say it was your birthday. yesterday was your birthday. did you know it was the prettiest day? so pretty. just like you. it was so nice of you to come on a holiday. i didn't have work, so i got to be with your mama all day. oh your mama. she was so strong. she was so beautiful. she was so happy to welcome you into the world. we were all so happy to welcome you into the world. did you know i accidentally missed your actual entrance to the world? i didn't know you'd come here so fast. i left to go get your grandpa, and well, five minutes after i left, your grandma called me and said "listen!" and then i heard you cry. it wasn't an annoying cry, so don't worry. it was the most perfect cry i have ever heard. i cried too. the ugly kind of cry though. we raced back to welcome you. you were so tiny, and, you're probably sick of hearing this, but YOUR HAIR. your hair was amazing. so much of it. you let me hold you for about a minute, but you were starving. looking everywhere for some food. so i had to give you back to mama. oh your mama. can i say it again? she was BEAUTIFUL! beaming. glowing actually. i couldn't stop staring. she's amazing, that mom of yours. she has been waiting for you her whole life. she was born to be a mom. you should feel lucky. you are lucky.

i love you so much already. i'm a baby hog. i held you this afternoon for two hours straight. i think i'll hold you tonight for at least three. i gave you a hundred kisses already. hopefully you like kisses. i'm so happy you're here little el.

love,
your aunt.

hi again.

whoa. what the crap. how the heck. i am so confused. just kidding, i'm not confused. but i feel kinda crazy right now. i've been at my cubicle for seven hours straight. and i've already organized the treats next to my desk like five times. so i'm pretty sure there is nothing left to do. except eat this fruit by the foot.

wahhhh fruit by the foot makes me think of ali. she loves fruit by the foot. i should have given her some before she left for north carolina for THE WHOLE SUMMER. what am i gonna do. crap. i gotta be positive. buuuut.

i'm planning a wedding all the sudden. how am i old enough for this?? actually i'm old enough (come on, i live in provo, i'm an old maid round these parts). how am i organized enough for this is a better question. like i've never planned a thing in my life. we already got our clothes for the day of the event. and now we're like "ALL DONE!!" but then i guess we're not. i guess there is a lot to do. how was i suppose to know how involved this whole thing is?? good thing i know so many crafty folk. they'll help me.

all last week i was miserable to be around. i'm sorry to anyone who encountered me. it's just that my computer wasn't letting me watch america's next top model. or glee. or the voice. WTF. i was pissed.

i pulled out my eyelash extensions last week. on accident. but not really. like it wasn't an accident. i spent and hour and a half on my bathroom counter pulling them out. in my defense, i didn't have my contacts in and anyone who wears contacts knows that you do crazy things when you aren't wearing them. so now i have no eyelashes. everyone does double takes when they look at me. and not the good kind of double takes. trust me.

he liked it.

well everybody probably knows by now. but i got engaged :). i am trying to refrain from using too many exclamation points. i'm pretty sure i've used more in the last 3 days than i have in my entire life. but i just can't help it. like it's painful right now to use periods. anywayyyyyyyyy.... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah! seriously, i am so happy. the happiest i've ever been. danny and i will be wed on august 13, 2011 in the timpanogous temple! we are so excited to start our life together. i am the luckiest. now i just gotta figure out how i'm gonna hone in on my homemaking skills so that we can stay alive for the next 50+ years. oops.