the hunt.

searching for a job is like searching for my work out pants a month before summer comes... it's tough. and no one seems to want to help cause they want a bikini bod just as bad as i do, so they're busy looking for their own breathable nikes.

i imagined a life of pencil skirts and tailored pants after graduation. instead i'm still offering grumpy ladies tea or water while they wait to get their hair done. i was complaining about my job search to a woman i'd just met, she told me that finding a job in this economy is just as bad as it was during the depression. she then smiled, patted me on the hand, and told me not to lose hope. hope? what's that.

do i sound completely annoying yet? i figure if i can't complain on my blog, on twitter, on facebook, at church, in the car, at the gym, to my mom, pillow, dogs, etc, where can i complain? you know?

i'm doomed.

my dating life.

okay?

my momma.

there's a lot of people in my life i know you should get to know. i'm lucky in that department. my mom is one of those people. i get all choked up thinking about what she has sacrificed for me, what she has been through, and done, all for me. all the times she has changed my life with just a few simple words. i feel honored that i came from her, that she is mine to call mom, mine to turn to, mine to love. i'd mention all her great qualities, but you would think i'm lying, she's really that unbelievable. she is so selfless and loving, she would do anything and i really do mean anything for me. and for you too. i know she would. cause she has. i know i am who i am because of her, i can't take any credit for being this awesome. anyway mom, i love you obviously.

graduation.

Date Night.

tonight i went on a date. WITH MY MOM. cause i love her and she loves me. we saw date night, and it was hilarious. we were both laughing so hard. behind us sat a row of old women and by "old women" i mean grandmothers. needless to say, they left in the middle of the show. so if you have grandmother taste in movies, don't go. also remember to stay til after the credits cause there is a nice little treat to make you laugh. kloveyoubye.

buried life.

has anyone seen the buried life? it's the show where in the commercial he says, "what do you.. want to do... before you die?" i can't get that saying out of my head, mostly because he says it with weird inflections in his voice, pausing between words for dramatic effect. but partly because i keep thinking what DO i want to do before i die?

so how the show goes is these four guys have made a list of 100 (i think) things that they want to do before they die. and then they go and do them. and some of them are pretty outrageous and funny and some are more emotional and sensitive. and then in each episode they complete one thing and then find a random person and help them do something that they.. want to do.. before they die. but i really can't get this thought out of my head. so i thought, why not make a list of all the things i want to do. big or small. dumb or smart. easy or hard. so here's a few things i've come up with.

graduate from college.

make it on the jumbo-tron at a jazz game.

open my business.

have a dog named dash.

go to grad school.

live in new york.

change someone's life. drastically for the better.

fall madly in love.

have children.

live in a foreign country.

buy my dad the car of his dreams.

participate in a triathlon.

change the world.

what do you.... want to do.... before you die?