buried life.

has anyone seen the buried life? it's the show where in the commercial he says, "what do you.. want to do... before you die?" i can't get that saying out of my head, mostly because he says it with weird inflections in his voice, pausing between words for dramatic effect. but partly because i keep thinking what DO i want to do before i die?

so how the show goes is these four guys have made a list of 100 (i think) things that they want to do before they die. and then they go and do them. and some of them are pretty outrageous and funny and some are more emotional and sensitive. and then in each episode they complete one thing and then find a random person and help them do something that they.. want to do.. before they die. but i really can't get this thought out of my head. so i thought, why not make a list of all the things i want to do. big or small. dumb or smart. easy or hard. so here's a few things i've come up with.

graduate from college.

make it on the jumbo-tron at a jazz game.

open my business.

have a dog named dash.

go to grad school.

live in new york.

change someone's life. drastically for the better.

fall madly in love.

have children.

live in a foreign country.

buy my dad the car of his dreams.

participate in a triathlon.

change the world.

what do you.... want to do.... before you die?

learnin.

today i have learned so many things, and it's only 10:52 am.

1. i learned not to judge a book by it's cover. like i know i'm 22 and i should know this by now. but today it has been solidified.

2. i learned how to add a link on the navigation of a website. i'll show you sometime.

3. i learned how to add a WHOLE PAGE to a website.

4. i learned that if i wake up at 7 am more often, i can learn more things.

5. i learned that a pigeon produces it's weight in droppings every 8 days. WHAT?

thanks for your time.

here's the secret.

"I was just interested in--in different ways of looking at this universe."

-Cat Stevens

life is changing a lot for me lately. graduation, job opportunities, moving/not moving, more school/no more school. i feel like everything is flying at my face so fast that instead of reaching out and grabbing something i'm just closing my eyes real tight. cause i'm scared of things flying at my face! sometimes i just wish i could have someone else decide what i should do. but then i remember i'm way too controlling for that. so then i start to think maybe i will just flip a coin and let fate decide. but then i remember i'm broke, so no coins. so then i came up with this great idea to just be N'SYNC with the universe. seriously. i don't know if any of you have read/watched "the secret" but basically it's this way of living and part of it describes this concept of visualizing, and believing that something will happen, and then it does. like when i first came in contact with the secret, i decided to be obsessed with it. it was my freshman year in college and finding a parking spot was a total pain in my ass. so i would visualize finding a parking spot within one minute of entering the parking lot. a few times i even stared a car down and visualized the driver coming out and me taking that spot. and believe me or not, it worked. really, you should try it. but if you think it's crazy, then don't try it, cause it won't work.

okay.

"There is a danger in the word someday when what it means is 'not this day.'... The thought 'Someday I will' can be a theif of the opportunities of time and the blessings of eternity."

-Henry B. Eyring

she's a good girl.

on sunday i decided i wanted to be good at something. so i decided to pick up my guitar and well, get good at it. five days later i can now play tom petty's version of "free falling" and people (mom and dad) can identify it. i am also working on "happy birthday" which i have made up by myself. my next song will be "angel" by jack johnson. and i really really really don't like jack johnson. but a girl has got to make sacrifices for her music.