butterbeer.

i ate candy. those pretzel m&m's are just so freakin good. there was no way you expected me to be able to resist those, right? i was forced to go to costco and get snacks and treats for the office. i am like, really? of course, send the girl with a raging addiction to pick up all the candy, and not only that, but put it all in my direct vision. i mean i can have my back to it, but i swear that candy just speaks to me, gets in my head, and makes me go crazy. so i had a handful. i'm no longer making goals i decided. wait, is that a goal? a goal to not make goals. i'm going crazy. too much sugar.

also, this weekend is ali's bridal shower. and my subconscious is going insane. i have had like 20 dreams about it. in one of them, i forgot ALL the food. i looked over at the table and there were only cups and napkins, and ali wasn't even pissing*, in fact she suggested we go to costco and get a veggie platter, so we did. in another dream i was trying to write down all the gifts she had received but it was taking me so long, and she was opening gifts too fast and there was SO much wrapping paper and ribbon all around me i started to get really hot and i couldn't stop writing. weirdest.

i like the rain. i mean, who doesn't. but i mean i really really really like the rain. it puts me in a calm and peaceful mood, and you know, i'm not naturally a calm or peaceful person. so it's real nice.

i feel like talking about anna on here again. cause recently we have just been talking about butterbeer. and we both really have the same opinions on it. like we think it is a warm drink that isn't carbonated. but so many people are telling us the opposite. but i think we won't listen and just do whatever we feel like. and i really hope she will just make some already and invite me over to a muggle hogsmead and we can talk about cats and plot our plan to finally get our education at hogwarts. we'll be like super super super seniors or whatever, but it won't matter, because we will be really good at potions and stuff so people will like us.

i'm the weirdest person, i think. i realize.

*after i posted this. i read through it, just to make sure i didn't say anything i'm going to regret in the morning. and then i saw that i wrote pissing instead of pissed. and i was going to change it, but then i think it is way better if i just say pissing. k, bye.